| Mental Backwash |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|10:17 pm] |
This post (or should I say, posting to lj) is inspired by a conversation...and probably will only be read by that person. ;)
trypto seems kind of hidden and has been too public, and my attempts to write completely solo (lifejournal installed on my computer) have gone by the wayside. Maybe I need some community, but not too much.
Today I did 2 different shopping trips, mowed the lawn, then practiced aikido for 1-1/2 hours. Over past weeks I've managed to clean (almost) the whole house, pack boxes of unneeded things, prepare marketing stuff for selling our house, manage 2 kids and a sick cat, and always there are 5 things in the back of my mind of what I should be doing otherwise. Even when I'm relaxing I'm stressing that the bathroom's dirty or we need to do touchup paint here or there or else the house won't sell. It's a cloud of anxiety that I'm sure most people don't feel just LIVING in their house.
Writing shouldn't feel like prepping my house for sale.
Suzuki-sensei (I think): "So what? Do nothing. Breathe, breathe, breathe."
Prepare for the mental backwash.
(also, can I say I'm amused by lj's list of adjectives? Hmm...no "serene"...guess I'll just go with what's between "high" and "horny"...you can figure out what high means in this context) |
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